Where Things Are Now.

Well it's been just about a month since the shyte hit the fan. And things are alot better. Although he and I aren't living together, we are still together. He's living in the lap of luxury (snicker) at his parents and I am living at the apartment. I also bought a car a few weeks ago. A pretty, red 2005 Grand Am and I LOVE IT!!!! I plan on having it for a while. I also got free parking through work which is awesome! What else can I say..... not too much I guess. I have been working steadily and feeling better then I have in months. I haven't eaten anything potato made in over a month and I feel really good about that. My volleyball is starting this week and I joined a tournament called Super Spike coming up in a few weeks. Should be awesome. Really looking forward to it. Still a reeling a little from the Oilers loss to Carolina but hey we'll get 'em next year! I guarantee it! They have made an NHL fan out of me, well at least an Oilers fan out of me. I haven't told anyone at work too much about him and I, so shhhh George! I haven't told anyone in my family that he and I are still together, I haven't been able to figure out a way to reconcile that just yet. I have until September 1st to figure it out. At which time we should be moving back in with each other into Garden City. My best guess is just to subtly mention some of the nice things he's been doing like helping out of $4000 extra charge on my new car. Love the car still, but hate the sales manager at the dealership. I am jumping around a bit aren't I? Oh well. Too bad for the one who asked me to update this so he knew what was going on in my life, you asked for it George. I started watching Canada's Next top Model and Canadian Idol. Both are actually really good, but not recap worthy because I think I am the only one watching one of them. But hey 3 'Pegger boys in the top 22 is pretty eff'n cool! And I know one of them in a roundabout sort of way. I went to his brother's wedding social on New Year's Eve 04/05. And they used to live in Kenora. Small, small world. Anyways. What else have I been up to....been 'Half Moonin'" it alot lately and hanging out with the cutie petutie Benjamin! I think he likes me!!! He always has a smile for me. That's a pretty important one. Boys who smile are the ones who get the girls. Ok well I think I am done. Hey it's short and sweet just like me but so not like my usual posts.

J-BOMB! OUT!

Catharsis & Bravado? Good or Bad?

Well if a blog is supposed to be therapeutic, then I shall be needing it really badly right now. It turns out that I am no longer a fiancee. Because MY fiance thinks I want to do nothing but ruin him financially. Yes ladies and gentlemen, the all mighty dollar has finally taken it's toll on my relationship. And the funny thing is the all mighty dollar never even got spent in order for it to ruin my life. Just the mere thought of it. I do believe, however, that it was just a smoke screen. Something is always not as it seems. Like my life. But I got it tonite and all he did was spit on me, literally. I have always known he had a mean streak in him ever since we moved in together. I never went after Mike. But we all know I broke his nose once. And this is getting straightened out before I come off as the crazy psycho ex-fiancee. I was laying in bed and had my back to him and I we were horsing around and he hit the spot on your side that makes you react with elbows, what I didn't know was that his head was right behind my elbow, and as he poked me I swung back to block his hands from contacting my sides and there was his nose. For the record, I cried. He bled and I cried because I thought at that time he was going to get so mad from something that should have been an innocent tickle fight that he was going to swing back at me. But he didn't. He laughed, hysterically at the fact that blood was gushing out of his nose. I phoned the only person I knew in the city with some sort of medical training, Roxilana. And when I phoned her I think Mike hung up the phone on her before she picked up. But she must have had caller ID I guess and she called us back and I explained what happened and asked her if we should go to the ER. She said for a broken nose, there really isn't much you can do. So from there it became the funny tale of why
Mike's nose is mishapened. But it got thrown in my face the next time things got tense. The nice thing about rambling for catharsis is that there doesn't really need to be rhyme or reason. I'm not sure what else to say. My eyes are open now, however they are still filled with tears. You don't spend a quarter of your life with someone and get over it in a few hours. I was finally going to get married to someone I have been waiting for, for 5 years. I got the promise ring in year 2 and had been waiting for him to come through on that promise since, and it finally happened. I was happier then I had ever been. It made me feel worthy. Like the last 7 years weren't a waste of my life. Not to sound too much like an old black and white movie but I'm a fool, a damn fool. I know who's side some of you will come down on and it's fine, you have to because he's been your friend since high school and there's bias there and rightfully so. But it was a pure pleasure getting to know you and your family, you know who you are. So that's it for me folks. Time to turn off the lights, tip your waitresses with reckless abandon and don't forget always leave them wanting more.